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——Welcome——
"The disconnect I have towards a lot of things is very paramount for this next phase of my life. I’m more aware of my faults , and I acknowledge that it takes only me to improve in that aspect. I’m ready to be guided ,corrected and advised . I’m aware of my power and the fact that I can be harsh in dealing with some situations -so , I imagine the impact my words can have before I say them .”
-Tsholofelo R
1. Alone but Grown
Alone but grown
Alone but grown .
I had a lot to learn .
My fears to overcome .
My fear for darkness .
My fear to feel deeper than I ever felt .
It’s in this lonely place .
That I discover more about my being .
My passion, my habits and my sad trauma .
How one Sunday became a Sunday blue.
The day you left no note.
No warning no remorse .
That really pained me .
I thought we were happy .
Well I was .
You left and here I am feeling-
Alone but grown .
I am (sui ritual)
I am .
An heirloom of my past. The origin of disbelief and life’s tragedy. An insecure nun led by curiosity
An amazing friend,amazing motivation
To me, who am I ?
A hollow emotion lingering hoping for D day. Yes! the day. Counting it down
Living through memories of my childhood
The trauma
Amazing melodies and scents that draw me to my roots
“You’re okay?” He asks
I’m fine. Why? I scare you?
I overwhelm you ? To think I’m some emotionally weighted girl
Not for you?
It’s okay. They’ve left & you’re probably going to leave too
Once you I lead you to my dark place And we share grace just before we end our lives
You thanking the Lord for your life-Appreciating all the climaxes I’ve given you.
The days you pleaded for me to make you a father. Oh yeah? Man those where amazing days
And now we share my grace
I thank my traumas
I thank my triggers
I thank you that you took me to parys for our final life party
Then we smoke
We’re going high daddy
Come take your rope
Step on that chair
Is it tight?
I repeat the same process
We both climb
We promise each other that we’ll love each other still
We’re hurt
He’s bisexual
We both are
We deal with lack of acceptance
Now, let’s end all this
It’s amazing
We love each other
Still
Even in our dying days.
2. We are
We’re all working on ourselves! Sometimes we slip up. Sometimes we do things we vowed to never do . It’s not that we aren’t serious about our intentions. It’s because of the hardships we encounter in this journey of change that make us think that “maybe I was okay just where I was”It’s hurting yes! And as for me, I’ve realised how it’s always me hurting myself.As a human being , you must remember that as long as you live under the sun - you’re going to be influenced (positively/negatively). We are pressured and because of that ? We find ways to escape it by giving in or generally being nonchalant about our lives . Not willing to improve, not willing to change.
"The key is to forever add fuel to your mind as it is the generator of your being. Always be learning & equipping your power house, you’ll reap great benefits ❤️”
-Tsholofelo Rangwaga
Remember that : Not everything is bad for us, it’s how a person perceives it when they are challenged.
“As we speak to our anxious hearts with our eyes closed we pose a question of “what do you need, your feelings are valid and I am listening to your every request.” Slowly inhaling through our nose and exhaling through our mouth. Taking very gentle breaths and loosening up as we open our eyes to face the real world."
-Unknown
3.
I leave my room messy just for the days I don’t feel like getting out of bed.
I leave my room untidy for such days
Where I’m not myself
Days that make me question my journey
I leave my room just a little messy
For , when I’m not feeling like my self
I stare at that pile of clothes and it reminds me
It reminds me of my hollow heart
The dirt on my shoes from the rain
Reminding me of the many dirty sheets
I - I’ve slept in
The soaked socks
Remind me of how pleasant men loved this box
They adore it even when it isn’t necessary
Yup I leave my room a mess
So it can be the metaphor of my life
The canvas of my life
Depicted in the unsureness of my mood
The remnants of sadness
Dripping just like my lotion from my toilet bag
I don’t understand why
But i leave my room a mess for a reason .
Messy room part 2
Part 2 of a messy room
When I finally choose myself
I pack my clothes nicely
No longer reminding me of my heart
Instead packing them resembles my healing
Carefully selecting them
Shows me how specific I am in choosing my peace
Color coordinating them
Then being reminded of how dirty my heart once was
It is during this time that I appreciate my father
Oh Lord , you saved me .
From the heavy burdened place
To a tidy place
Less crowded
Just me , alone
With my thoughts
I’m in so much awe
Ready to tidy up my emotions
Creating peace within myself ❤️
Love facade
I thought I knew
What was love ...
An emotion that was too deep to explore an amazing sound you sparked in my being. How amazing? An insurmountable feeling
An amazing seasing I was sure to enjoy.Was the affection worth me staying ?
Was it true love to being physically beaten ? Was it worth it to stay and feel his worth everything I’ve got to offer. I’m a good enough , I asked ? Universe made me believe he was the one yet it wasn’t easy to not be myself within the “true love” I was offered.
Is it worth it ? Who has the answer , myself , but I don’t know it , I’m as confused as a new born .
-Masego Masike
Lonely
In this this space where my emotions are free floating.Like the Rastafarian after a long hash session. This was my fear. You left a note a promised you’ll return
Covid happen and now we’re apart. It’s been six months and I’ve even forgotten how your embrace feels.To be warm in your arms.To be complimented by you. That will never happen though
…you went for quarantine
…you never returned back to me
No chance to bury you
You left me-
Lonely.
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